I.M. Helped[possible title?]

Monday, September, 15 3:45 pm.

BurnItRight: Who is this?
AllieIsRadxCore: Who is this?
BurnItRight: I asked you first.
AllieIsRadxCore: Well, that’s true but maybe if you learned to read you know who I was. But why are you iming me if you didn’t know who I was?
BurnItRight: Well, Allie, your screen name popped up on my buddy list, and I was like wtf. Who is that?
AllieIsRadxCore: woopdidoo. That’s weird.
BurnItRight: Indeed it is.
AllieIsRadxCore: So….. Where are you from?
BurnItRight: I’m from San Francisco, you?
AllieIsRadxCore: Funny, me too.
BurnItRight: Really? What grade are you in? I just realized I could be talking to some like 11 year old girl.
AllieIsRadxCore: I’m 16 in the 11th grade.
BurnItRight: Oh. Good. I’m 18 in the 12th grade.
AllieIsRadxCore: 18?
BurnItRight: Yeah.
BurnItRight: So what school do you go to?
AllieIsRadxCore: Thinkin’ maybe we go to the same school?
BurnItRight: Yeah.
AllieIsRadxCore: So forward. tsk tsk
BurnItRight: Don’t flatter your self.
AllieIsRadxCore: So what kind of sn is BurnItRight?
BurnItRight: Idk. My stupid dick of a friend made it up. What about yours? RadxCore?
AllieIsRadxCore: LMAO. You don’t know what RadxCore means? It means rad in like a hardcore way. Like really, really rad. Lol.
BurnItRight: so you think your hardcore rad?
AllieIsRadxCore: Yes. What school do you go to?
BurnItRight: I asked that before and you got all defensive so why should I tell you?
AllieIsRadxCore: Because I don’t want you to know the school I go to because if you find that out, you’ll know who I am….if we go to the same school.
BurnItRight: Fair. Then why don’t we keep it that way? Not knowing each other’s schools. Lol.
AllieIsRadxCore: K.
BurnItRight: K.
AllieIsRadxCore: I never got your name.
BurnItRight: Bobby
AllieIsRadxCore: Cute name. =]. Mine is Alaafia. But my friends call me Allie.
BurnItRight: Cool. That’s a real cool name. I like it.
AllieIsRadxCore: Thanks, You know the cool thing is if we were in the same school, you’d have no idea.
BurnItRight: And why is that?
AllieIsRadxCore: Because I was registered under my middle name.
BurnItRight: What is it?
AllieIsRadxCore: ha. Like I’m telling you, I have to go. Ttyl?
BurnItRight: Totally.
AllieIsRadxCore has signed off.


(Tuesday)-Seth
“Duuuudeeeee! What’s up?” my friend Pete said punching me in the shoulder as I walked up to school.
“Hey man!” I said a bit startled as I was thinking about the conversation I had last night. I don’t know why I’m still thinking about it, it wasn’t that great but for some reason that girl intrigued me. Maybe I shouldn’t have lied about my name…
“What’s goin on in your head, man?”
“What are you talking about?”
“You look all like weird”
“Oh dude. No, It’s nothing.” I said quickly as some weird girl bumped into me. “Jeez, watch out freak!” I yelled after her.
“Go to hell, Jock scum!” she yelled back, not turning around.
“god I hate Goth girls” I said to Pete.
“Me too, let’s go”
We walked to our lockers and separated as I have calculus and he has history. As I walked into history class I saw that stupid Goth chick, and it made me think about Allie for some reason. I wondered if she hated Goths too. I walked passed her and whispered “Stupid depressed bitch” and sat down in my seat two behind hers. I was happy I didn’t have football practice tonight. I passed through the day like I normally do; sit through lunch listening to the stupid guys at my table talk about cars and crap I pretend to care about. After my AP lit class, which is my last class of the day (thank god) I went to my locker to put my books away and that girl passed by “Momma’s boy” she said and walked away.
“Whatever”, I said slamming my locker and walking into the parking, lot to my car, a Mercedes-Benz in gold that my mother gave me when I turned 16.
I drove home listening to Three Days Grace. Something none of my friends would ever approve of.


Allie
I hate being late to school, especially when I’m the new girl. It’s so typical. Anyways I had a bad day today, got called a freak and a depressed bitch by some weird guy I don’t even know. I’m happy to be home, I’ve been thinking about Bobby all day, but I don’t know why. He’s cool.

Tuesday, September, 16 4:00
AllieIsRadxCore: Hey
BurnItRight: Hey…
AllieIsRadxCore: something wrong?
BurnItRight: No. just an annoying day at school, Nothing out of the ordinary.
AllieIsRadxCore: Me too. I started at a new school today. I got a rude welcoming.
BurnItRight: I’m sorry, so tell me about yourself. That sounds so cliché but seriously.
AllieIsRadxCore: People never get anywhere just talking about them selves. Let’s talk about something.
BurnItRight: Okay…how about….school.
AllieIsRadxCore: Well, I love art. I have 2 art classes that I’m really happy that I got since I transferred kinda late; and English is my best subject. I’m good in basically everything though. I got all AP classes.
BurnItRight: Me too. I have all AP classes. But I’m not as into art as you are. I like sports. I’m on the football team, but wouldn’t call me a “Jock” because I have a different mind set than other guys on my team do.
AllieIsRadxCore: How so?
BurnItRight: I guess in the sense that I’m more open minded and I’m also like a closet nerd.
AllieIsRadxCore: lol. Cool and I bet none of your friends know this about you.
BurnItRight: Yup. They wouldn’t understand. They would immediately chuck me from the group and yeah.
AllieIsRadxCore: But how can you stand to be friends with them if like, you don’t actually like them?
BurnItRight: I don’t know. I guess because….
AllieIsRadxCore: What?
BurnItRight: Well, nothing just that Idk you and I’m gonna tell you something I haven’t told anyone…
AllieIsRadxCore: That’s the fun of it though. We don’t know each other at all but we are like confiding in each other. It’s kind of cool.
BurnItRight: I guess. Well anyways…it’s because like I grew up with all my siblings always being the popular kid in school and like they always talked about how they made fun of people lower than them and I don’t want to be treated that way and I guess I kind of like being popular. Idk.
AllieIsRadxCore: Oh, well I guess that makes sense.
BurnItRight: No it doesn’t.
AllieIsRadxCore: No, it does. It’s something that you’re like accustomed to and you don’t have to change unless you want to.
BurnItRight: don’t take this the wrong way, I love you.
AllieIsRadxCore: LMAO. You’re funny.
BurnItRight: No seriously. If I told that to my sister she’d think I was crazy for wanting to change and for even thinking it. Anyways, what about you? What’s your family like?
AllieIsRadxCore: No comment.
BurnItRight: What?
AllieIsRadxCore: Nothing. I just don’t like talking about my family. I live with my mom.
BurnItRight: do you mind me asking why?
AllieIsRadxCore: Well, No but I g2g. I have homework. Bye.
BurnItRight: No, wait I’m sorry.
AllieIsRadxCore has signed off
Allie
“I feel bad that I just signed off like that, I mean he was just curious.” I explained to my friend October after that conversation with Bobby.
“Well yeah but he was pushing you, even after you said you didn’t want to talk about it.”
“But still….”
“But still, what?”
“I don’t know. I miss you”
“We miss you too”
“How’s my baby?”
“Oh um, chase?”
“Yeah, I miss him like whoa and I haven’t talked to him in like a few days.”
“Oh….”
“Oh? What happened?”
“Well, He kind of like hooked up with Veronica.”
“……………”
“Sweetie, are you there?”
“Uh huh”
“Hun, I’m Sorry”
“No, it’s okay because I kind of had my eyes on something else and we all know long distance relationships don’t work. I’m fine.”
“Okay, well I gotta go. I’ll talk to you later. Call me if anything.”
“Okay, love you”
“Love you too”
Ugh. I can’t believe he cheated on me. It feels so weird. I feel dirty and like used and ugh! I’m not gonna cry though I’m not gonna cry. Yes I am.
“God damn it!” I screamed through tears.
I grabbed the phone and dialed Chase’s number.
“Hello?” He said into the phone.
“Hi”
“Baby, what’s wrong, why are you crying”
“It’s because of you.”
“What are you talking about?”
“How’s Veronica? You know because I haven’t talked to her in a while”
“Well I haven’t talked to her lately”
“Oh I know the last thing you did with her was suck face, wasn’t it?”
“………..”
“I knew it. It’s over.” I concluded slamming the phone down.
I went and through my self on the bed and cried into my pillow. I knew crying wasn’t doing me any good but it made me feel better, until the phone started ringing.
“Hello?” I sniffled.
“Baby, please. I’m sorry”
“Your not, you’re a liar and a pig and I hate you. You told me you loved me but you don’t-“
“I DO LOVE YOU”
“No you don’t. Chase, baby, I love you and I always will, but this is it…”
“You don’t trust me.”
“How can I? Right after I moved away you go and snog another girl!”
“What?”
“You fucking kissed Veronica!”
“Baby, I’m sorry-“
“Don’t baby me. I’m not your baby anymore. Veronica is.”
“Fine. It’s not my problem you can’t trust me.”
“WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT? I TRUSTED YOU WITH MY HEART! I LOVED YOU SO MUCH AND WE WERE TOGETHER FOR TWO YEARS, YOU THREW IT AWAY WITH JUST A FEW DAYS AWAY FROM ME?! I HARDLY SEE HOW IT’S MY FAULT THAT I DON’T TRUST YOU! CHASE, I LOVE YOU, BUT WE ARE OVER.BYE”
“Bye…..”

I hung up the phone and cried even more. I couldn’t take it. It hurts, I spent the last 2 years of my life with him and he threw me away like hot garbage. God. I need to do something. I’m going back online.


Tuesday, September, 16 7:00 pm
BurnItRight: Sorry. Sorry. Sorry. Sorry. Sorry. Sorry.
AllieIsRadxCore: Stop apologizing. It’s Okay. It was my fault. I wish I had stayed online though, would have saved me a lot of crying.
BurnItRight: Crying?
AllieIsRadxCore: Yeah.
BurnItRight: If you don’t mind me asking, why?
AllieIsRadxCore: It’s fine. When I got off the internet I called my friend from Orange County and asked her about my BF.
BurnItRight: You Have a Boyfriend?
AllieIsRadxCore: wait a sec.
BurnItRight: K
AllieIsRadxCore: So Then she was like Oh, well he hooked up with Veronica. Veronica is a stupid whore that should die slow. =D. So I called him to like confirm it and it was true and it hurt because we had been together for 2 years and he kissed Veronica right after I left. So yeah. I’m better now.
BurnItRight: Guys suck. Lol. I’m sorry. From what I know of you your really cool and shouldn’t be treated like that.
AllieIsRadxCore: You’re sweet. Well, let me tell you about my family. I mean there’s not much to know but yeah.
BurnItRight: Okay.
AllieIsRadxCore: No, no. Rain check. I’ll ttyl. Don’t panic. <3.>

Seth
God. That girl is so weird, but, in a good way. I love it. She makes me feel like its not horrible being a jock. I feel horrible being a jock. I can’t believe I said that to that girl today. I’m an asshole. I’m gonna apologize to her tomorrow. I wish I could have a friend that understood me. Well I have her but I don’t have her phone number, or anything. So I can’t talk to her whenever I feel like. This sucks.


(Wednesday)-Allie
I wanted to go to school not being noticed. I have bruises all over my body, I hate my mother. She’s an abusive drunken whore. She treats me like a piece of shit. I can’t take it anymore. I want to like runaway. It’s not fair. Well, I’m walking to school with long sleeves on because I have bruises all over my arm, and a hoodie and all the “goth-looking” clothes. I’m In my own world right now, listening to Nirvana, when out of no where I’m in the air and then face down on the ground with my CD on the floor, my books scattered and all my stuff a mess. I turned around on my back to face the guy that was rude to me yesterday, his circle of friends and like half the school.
“WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU? I’M JUST TRYING TO GET THROUGH MY FUCKING DAY I DON’T NEED SOME STUPID GUY BOTHERING ME, LET ALONE SOME COCK-SMOKING JOCK AND HIS FRIENDS!”
I screamed gathering my stuff and running away with tears streaming down my face. I ran into the bathroom and closed my self in a stall and just cried. When I came out of the bathroom the jock from yesterday was standing outside the door.


Wednesday – Seth
Wow. I’m a Jerk. I just tripped that gothic girl I said I was gonna apologize to and now I’m standing outside the bathroom door waiting for her.
“What do you want?”
“I’m sorry. I told myself that I was gonna apologize to you. I tripped you; I’m a complete and total jerk-off. I feel horrible. I’m so sorry.”
“You know, I’m sorry that I dress a certain way and that makes you pick on me but I have a fucked up life. This is how I dress and I dress this way because it’s how I feel so if you people are gonna fuck around with me because of that, then you can go fuck yourself.” She said turning to walk away.
“No. wait, here.” I said giving her a letter I wrote to her last night. “You don’t have to accept it just read it”
“Whatever”
For the rest of the day I am going to be secretly worried about what she would say to me after reading it. But I didn’t ask her to reply or anything I just wanted her to read it. It makes me feel a lot better knowing she at least reads it.
I want to go home. I think I’ll go home early. No, I won’t. I’ll just cut the rest of the day in the library and sleep.

Wednesday, September 17, 5:00
BurnItRight: Hey, what’s up?
AllieIsRadxCore: Nothing. I had a really irritating day. I don’t even wanna talk about it.
BurnItRight: Okay, well, I didn’t have the best day either but I feel better; because I apologized to a girl that I was really fucked up to yesterday. And I was fucked up to her today too. I suck.
AllieIsRadxCore: No you don’t. I’m sure she just needs the time to think about it through.
BurnItRight: Thanks.
AllieIsRadxCore: No Problem.
BurnItRight: So what do you do at home? Since you just moved here from OC right?
AllieIsRadxCore: Yeah. Well I mostly stay in my room. My mom and I don’t really get along so I try to stay away from her as much as physically possible. You?
BurnItRight: Well, I told you how my whole family were always like the popular kids and they are über popular and stuff like that, well, because of that its hard for me to really be myself at home, like I cant listen to the music I want and like if you walked into my room you would think that I really loved football and sports and crap like that. I mean I do but not that much.
AllieIsRadxCore: What kind of music do you listen to?
BurnItRight: Rock, Hardcore, Punk, Grunge.
AllieIsRadxCore: Good taste in genres, but what about bands?
BurnItRight: Well, Nirvana is pretty much the best band ever but I like Pink Floyd and Led Zeppelin. But there’s also Norma Jean and Drop Dead Gorgeous.
AllieIsRadxCore: haha. I totally agree with you about Nirvana and I love Pink Floyd and Zeppelin. But Norma Jean?? DDG???? EW. What’s wrong with you?
BurnItRight: What’s wrong with you? They fuckin ruleee!
AllieIsRadxCore: You must be high! Please don’t tell me you like From First to Last.
BurnItRight: Ha ha. No. Hate them. What about The Clash, The Sex Pistols??
AllieIsRadxCore: My loves!!!
BurnItRight: hahahahhahaha
BurnItRight: Ugh. I gotta go. Dinner time. Ttyl?
AllieIsRadxCore: You bet!
BurnItRight has just signed off.
Allie
Wow. I really like talking to Bobby. It’s nice to know that I have someone to talk to about my mother and stuff like that. He’s really sweet. I wish I could talk to him on the phone. But that would ruin the suspense of us being strangers.hehe. I wonder what he’s doing…..
“Allieeee!!!”
“Jeez…” I muttered under my breath. “What?”
“Come help me”
“With what?”
“Don’t ask questions, just do it.”
“…coming” I said walking hesitantly to the sound of my mother’s drunken self,” What?”
“Make me some coffee.”
“We don’t have any.”
“Than go get me cigarettes.”
“Mom. I’m 16.”
“JUST DO ITTTT!”
“Okay okay. Bye.” I said grabbing the money and running out the door. I hate my mother. She’s such a bitch.
“Shit!” I exclaimed running back up the stairs to my house and into my room. I forgot my CD player. After getting my CD player and putting in my favorite CD I went back outside and went to the store. I went to the only store around that would sell me cigarettes….maybe…

“Can I get a pack of Marlboro lights?”
“No”
“Why?”
“Too young”
“They aren’t for me.”
“I would but I can’t sorry hun”
“I’ll get them” A voice from behind me interrupted. I whirled around to see that it was that jock from school.
“Ugh. Leave me alone” I said walking out of the store with him trailing behind.
“I’m sorry I’m sorry I’m sorry I’m sorry I’m sorry I’m sorry I’m Sorry-“
“I don’t care. I don’t, you’re just a jerk.”
“No”, he replied grabbing my arm to hold me still “Please don’t hate me? I’m sorry.”
“Why are you even- ugh forget it,” I said breaking free from his grip “Bye”
“No, wait!”
“What?”
“Give me another chance. Please?”
“Why should I, I don’t even know you and frankly I don’t want to know you.”
“Please?”
“Buy me the cigarettes”
“Uhm. Okay.”
“But it doesn’t mean I forgive you.”
“Okay”
“Now, How are you gonna buy me those cigarettes?”
“I’m 18”
“Oh. Right”


Seth
As we walked back to the store, I thought about why I was even doing this. What was the point? I knew I wasn’t gonna end up being friends with the girl in school anyways.
“Thanks for buying those for me,” Allie said “If I didn’t get those my ass would be grass”
“Ha ha ha”
“No, I’m serious. My mom isn’t the nicest because she’s always drunk and if I don’t do what she says I pay for it. In pain.”
I stopped laughing abruptly, “Are you serious? She beats you?”
“I don’t even know why I’m telling you this but, yeah, she does.”
“Why?”
“Because, my dad left because she has anger management problems. She got custody of me so I have no choice.”
“That’s not cool…so where is it that we’re going”
“To my house, only, you’re not coming in, my mom can’t see you, and she already thinks I’m a slut so it won’t help me.”
“Okay”
“So wait here,” she said as she walked up the front stairs to her house.
I waited for about ten minutes and just as I heard a gigantic crash Allie came running out.
“Are you okay?”
“Uhm….sure….whatever”
“No seriously, are you?”
“Well I could be better. I told her I was going out now and she got mad and started throwing shit, and when I left she tripped me and I accidentally broke a vase so I wouldn’t fall.”
“Oh, well, try to forget about it and have a good time with me.”
She looked at me with a quizzical look and said “you’re weird, but that’s okay. Where are we going?”
“I don’t know, I would bring you to my house but that wouldn’t end up good.”
“What time is it?”
“6:00”
“Ugh. I have to go anyways…this was a fun…walk thing.”
“But you just came back out.”
“Yeah, well if I leave with her pissed like this then I’m just gonna have to deal with it later; I’d rather just deal with it now.”
“Okay….”
“See you when I see you.”
“Yeah. Bye…”
As she turned to walk back into her house I thought this was my only chance to really make her believe I wasn’t the jerk I acted like.
“Hey wait!” I called to her as she turned around.
“Hmm?”
“What if I snuck in through your window?”
“What?”
“I mean, I like talking to you, because you’re different than my teammates and I didn’t get the chance to explain everything to you”
“Uhm…well…But…”
“Please??”
“Fine, but wait out on my stair case, and when I give you the okay, come in. okay?” she explained as we got to her porch.
“Okay” I said sitting down.


Allie
I don’t know why I’m doing this. This could be a really huge mistake. He’s a jerk. What am I doing? I should just turn around and tell him to leave. Yeah. That’s it.

I can’t.

UGHHHH.

“Mom?”
“What?”
“My friend is coming over, we have a project and he’s supposed to come over to help me with it.”
“Whatever, just don’t fuck him”
“Yeah mom. Got it. Can you just, maybe not scream at me for a couple hours?”
“Mhhmmm”
Ah. Yes, she’s gonna pass out.
“Okay. Thanks mom”
She didn’t answer so I went back outside to get this kid.
“Hey, you can come in now.”
“Okay cool” he said getting up from the stairs and following me inside.
“Please excuse the passed out woman in the middle of the living room”
“Okayyy”
“That would be my mother. If we ever happen to be in this situation again, where you are in my house, it’ll most likely be the same.”
“Why?” He asked as I closed my bedroom door behind him.
“Sit.”
“Well?”
“Oh, well it’s just cause she’s a whore.”
“No, seriously.”
“Well its cause she’s a whore and because she’s depressed.”
“Oh.”
“Yeah.”
“Do you wanna talk about it?”
“……..”
“You don’t have to its fi-“
“No, its okay, I’m just thinking of where to start. Do you really want to hear my whole life story?”
“Sure. You look like you need someone to listen, and it’s the least I could do.”
“Okay…the beginning?” I asked hesitantly.
“Yup” he said with the smile, “I’m all ears.”
I sat on the bed next to him, crossing my legs to face him. He did the same.
“Okay, so my parents were married for ten years before the problems started. My dad started coming home from work later, and it wasn’t even because he was seeing someone else. He had to work overtime to make money for my brother’s tuition. He went to a private school in OC.”
“Why didn’t you go?”
“I refused”
“Nice”
“Yeah, so I refused to go so they had to pay tuition for his school and my mom started getting anger issues out of no where. We were all scared, we didn’t understand. My mom started drinking she would come home bombed and loud and none of us would get sleep because she was so hard to manage. Around that time my brother ran away for about a week and that just caused a lot more chaos in my household. When he came home my mother bugged out. She screamed at him for about an hour, which was normal. So my dad and I just left it alone, I mean he ran away, he should be getting screamed at. That’s when we heard the smacking and the yelling- coming from my brother. We ran into the kitchen and my mother was hitting the shit out of my brother…” I was when he put his hand to my cheek that I realized I had started crying.
“You, don’t have to continue you know… I understand.”
“No, its fine, it helps me get over it to talk about it. Are you sure you still want to listen?”
“Yeah, go a head” he said wiping a stray tear from my cheek, I smiled and continued.
“Okay, so yeah, she was hitting my brother and my brother was on the floor screaming ‘Mom stop! What the fuck! Mom stop! I’m sorry! Please stop!’ My dad picked my mom up off of my brother, and I grabbed my brother’s arm helping him up and walking him to his room. He asked me to leave and I went back out to the kitchen to see what the hell happened. I walked in to see my father cradling my mother; she had gone limp and was passed out in his arms. She was drunk. My dad took her to their room and returned to the kitchen with my brother.”
“That night we had a serious talk about my mother change of behavior and everything. My dad was starting to freak out and had suggested the two of them get a divorce, my brother and I had no opposition to the idea just as long as we got to go with my father. Well when my mother was finally informed of this she hired a lawyer and got custody of me and since my brother was 17 going on 18 he got to choose. I was so heart broken and for the longest time I didn’t talk to my dad or my brother. I was so angry at them for leaving me alone with her, and they weren’t even gonna try anymore. It wasn’t until a couple weeks ago that I started talking to them again and coincidentally it happened around the same time my mom decided to move here. And ever since we moved here my mother has gotten worse, she hits me, more than she did before-which I failed to mention-and since we live a couple blocks from the bar she is drunk most of the time.”
“She doesn’t work?”
“Nope, Most of the money we live off of is the money from the divorce.”
“Oh”
“Yeah...” I said looking down at my hands.
“I’m so sorry” He said suddenly pulling into a huge hug. Before I could control it I was crying into his shoulder.
“What? What’s wrong? Why are you crying?”
“Thank you. You’re the first person I’ve really talked to, like seriously talked to for a long time, even my ex didn’t listen to me like you did. Thank you. So much.” I said kissing him on the cheek.
“Don’t say that…”
“Why?”
“Because, even though I love talking to you, a lot and I love hanging out with you, there’s no way for it to work out that way in school”
“Ugh...”
“I’m sorry. You have no idea how much I wish we could hang out in school and how much I truly mean that.”
“Its okay, I understand, bur could you maybe lighten up with the taunting and stuff?”
“Definitely”
‘Thanks” I said smiling.
“What time is it?”
“Its 9:00. Do you want me to walk you home?”
“No its fine, I got it.”
“Okay, well I’ll see you tomorrow. Can I call you?”
“Sure. (619) 555 7591.”
“Okay, I’ll call you later.”
“Cool beans” I said walking him to the door.
“Bye” he said kissing me lightly on the lips and walking down the stairs, leaving me stunned, watching him walk down the street.I closed the door and went back to my room.


Wednesday, September 17 9:45
BurnItRight: Hey Allie.
AllieIsRadxCore: Hey Bobby. What’s up?
BurnItRight: Nothing much. Just got home.
AllieIsRadxCore: From where?
BurnItRight: A friends house. What are you up to?
AllieIsRadxCore: Nothing really, in my room. I’m tired. I’m hungry too, but I’m not going to my refrigerator.
BurnItRight: Why not?
AllieIsRadxCore: My mother.
BurnItRight: Oh, right.
AllieIsRadxCore: Yeah so I’m like..hungyyy.
BurnItRight: I’m sorry, do you want me to bring you some food?
AllieIsRadxCore: Please.
BurnItRight: Okay, I’m on my way, what would you like? And what’s your address?
AllieIsRadxCore: No. I was being sarcastic. It’s late, and if you were to come into my house right now, my mom would think that we were gonna fuck.
BurnItRight: Very nice. Would you?
AllieIsRadxCore: As If. I don’t know what you look like, and contrary to the belief of my mother I am NOT a whore.
BurnItRight: Oh. Okay, just making sure.
AllieIsRadxCore: Ha. Ha.
BurnItRight: Aww. Don’t be mad. I’m just playing.
AllieIsRadxCore: =P.
BurnItRight: So whats up?
AllieIsRadxCore: I’m tired.
BurnItRight: go to sleep.
AllieIsRadxCore: ehhh. Fine. Talk to you tomorrow?
BurnItRight: You got it duuude.
AllieIsRadxCore: lol. Night.
BurnItRight: Sweet dreams.
AllieIsRadxCore has just signed off.



Thursday
I decided that this morning I would make a bigger effort to be friends with her today. So since our school is kinda far I went to her house in my car and waited outside. About five minutes after I got there she came outside with the most bewildered look on her face.
“What are you doing here?” she demanded
“Get in.”
“But, when we get to school your friends are gonna see.”
“I’ll figure something out.”
She looked at me with a look that said “mhmm”
“It won’t be mean. I swear.”
“Okay. Whatever, I trust you; I don’t know why but I do. So don’t fuck it up.”
“I won’t.”
“Kay…So what made you decide to do this?”
“I don’t know. I just decided that I thought it was fucked up for me to ruin a perfectly good beginning of a friendship that we have just to keep my place in school. I’m just gonna do it my way. So it works both ways.”
“Uh huh…”
“I’m serious” I said smiling.
“Okay. I believe you. So you rally think we can be friends?”
“Yeah, why not?”
“I don’t know”
“Well we can at least try right?”
“Yeah, I guess…”
“Why are you so against this?” I said stopping the car turning to her.
She looked up at me from her hands and I saw the resistance in her eyes.
“What?” I half demanded wanting to know why she looked so scared.
“Nothing, its just I have a problem letting guys get close to me. It’s a more recent problem.”
“Well, you don’t have to let me in all at once. Just bit by bit.”
“Okay, but you have to bear with me.”
“Of course” I said starting to drive again.
“Okay, well…I guess come to my house after school?”
“Yeah, wait for me here and I’ll drive.” I said getting out of the car and walking around to open hers.
“But you-“
“Don’t worry about it. I have it under control. I promise. Trust me?”
“I told you I do already.”“Okay, so I’ll see you after school” I concluded turning around to my whole football team crowding us.

Allie
Shit. Shit. Shit.
Everything was perfect, and now… his friends show up. Please don’t humiliate me Seth. Please. I looked up into his eyes with so much apprehension it hurt. He returned my gaze with confidence, so I faced my fears and looked at all the jocks staring at me.
“Seth! What the fuck are you doing giving this…this FREAK a ride to school ?!”
“Shut the fuck up Dane. Our parents work together… and since she’s new they asked me if I could show her around and make sure no one was mean to her. So you guys need to stop being dicks.”
“Us?? Man that’s all you. You’re the one that tripped her yesterday.”
“Yeah… but I apologized.”
“So? Freak, why did you forgive him?”
“Uh….um…I…He…Shit.”
“Wow. She is a freak, she can’t even form a sentence.”
That comment enraged me. The nerve!
“Oh fuck you Dane! How dare you fucking judge me and say that I cant form a sentence. Look at you. You fucking beefcake. I bet you can’t read a paragraph! For fucks sake maybe before you go around making fun of me you should go look at your pizza face in the mirror.” I said walking away in a huff.
“Hey! Wait!” I heard Seth yell after me but I kept on walking. I went to my locker and opened it angrily, mumbling to myself. I was putting my books away when I hear footsteps coming towards me quickly.
“Allie, I’m so sorry for what happened back there. I should have stood up for you better. I’m sorry that my friends are such jerks and and and…” he said panting.
I slammed my locker closed, he looked up in alarm.
“Seth, its fine. You did fine. I’m sorry your friends are jerks too, but what can you do? I’m not mad at you. I’m mad at…Dane. That’s his name right? I’m mad at him because he said I was dumb, I don’t care if people call me a freak but when someone says I’m dumb, that’s when I bug out.”
“Oh…” he said confused.
“Seriously you did good. I’ll see you after school” I said touching my hand to his face and walking away to my class.
School was the same repetition it is everyday. Sit in the back, take notes, listen to the teachers drone on and on.
But lunch was a huge surprise. I didn’t even realize I had lunch with Seth until he came up to me at my lunch table in the back of the lunch room while I was reading.
“Hey there! Whatcha reading?” he said startling me.
“Jesus Christ! Warn a person before you pop out of nowhere. I nearly jumped 5 feet in the air.”
“Ha ha ha, sorry. Mind if I sit with you today?”
“I don’t care, but you don’t?”
“No. I want the guys to get used to seeing me with you”
“And they’re gonna see you all the way over here?”
“Good point. Come with me.”
“What did I just get myself into?”
“Nothing bad, just come on.”
“Ugh…” as I followed him across the lunchroom I saw all the nasty glares from the girls...basically everyone.
“Seth?”
“Yeah?”
“Everyone hates me”
“What are you talking about?”
“Well, if you look around everyone in this cafeteria is giving me the death eye. I’m walking around the lunchroom with the star quarterback of the football team. And I’m a ‘freak’. What is this?”
“Well, this is me changing something for once. Just trust me”
“Ugh. Okay, where are you taking me anyways?”
“To my table”
“WHAT?” I said stopping dead in my tracks.
“Come on” he said pulling my arm.
“I’m not going to sit with your friends”
“Please??”
“God, I hate you. You know that?”
“yeah yeah come on”
I followed. We arrived at his lunch table at the receiving end of the most dumbfounded expressions I’ve ever seen, it would have made me laugh if I wasn’t so annoyed.
“Hey guys make some room for us”
“Us?” Dane asked quizzically
“Yeah man. Me and her” he said looking in my direction.
“Hi” I said waving nervously.
“Mmmm. Hi, sit”
“Thanks” I said sitting down in between Dane and Seth.
“Dane?”
“Mhmm?”
“I’m sorry I went off on you before. Just don’t call me dumb again and it wont happen again.”
“Uh… okay”
“Okay. So Seth…talk.”
“On second thought…you wanna go somewhere else?”
“Sure! I mean sure.”
“Lets go.” Seth said getting up and dragging me into the hallway.
“Whats up?”
“Nothing… I just wanted you to know that you’ve never told me your name.”
“What?”
“I don’t know your name”
“Are you serious?”
“Are you mad?”
“No. It’s actually funny”
“Oh, well are you gonna tell me?”
“Later” I said as the bell rang and I went to my next class leaving him there in the middle of the hallway. Went through the motions again for the second half of the day. Except this part was felt a lot longer, because I was anticipating this afternoon. At the end of the day I was so drained I felt like a zombie and it wasn’t until Seth came to pick me up from my locker that I really snapped out of it.
“Hey, ready to go?”
“Yeah, but you know people are gonna start thinking we’re going out”
“So?”
“That doesn’t bother you?” I said closing my locker walking towards the parking lot.
“Nope. Not in the slightest.”
“Why? I’ll tell you when we get to your house…right after you tell me your name”
“Oh, right…”
“You have no idea how big a dick I feel like, not knowing your name.”
“Well don’t feel that way, your not a dick”
“Whatever…”he said opening my door.
“So tell me, why doesn’t it bother you?”
“Nope. I’m not saying a word.”
“Why not?”
“What’s your name?”
“Oh, It’s Allie, sweetheart”
“Okay, well I’ll tell you when we get to your house it’s kind of a long story.”
“Okay, By the way I’m never eating lunch at your table again. If you want to eat lunch with me then you can come sit with me. That was so awkward.”
“I know I know.”
“Well, what do you wanna do when we get to my house?”
“I don’t know, is your mom gonna be home?”
“I have no idea, but if she is I’m gonna have to introduce her to you so maybe she’ll see I’m not a whore.”
“Okay.”
We got to my house about five minutes later and fortunately my mother wasn’t home. So we went into the living room and I turned on the TV.
“So, lets talk.” I said eager to hear his story.
“Well, can we go into your room?”
“Okay but don’t try anything” I said laughing leading the way to my room. I sat down on my queen sized bed Indian style and patted the space next to me for him to sit. He sat in front of me the same way I sat.
“Okay…” he started then looked at me.
“Sweetie, what’s wrong?”
“Nothing it’s just this story has a lot more to it than you think.”
“Oh, well you know even though we just met you know you can tell me whatever you like.”
“I know, but right now I don’t think I can tell you the details, its hard for me to talk about”
“That’s fine”
“Okay, so the main reason to my open-mindedness is my family. My family is rich. Always have been. My brother and sister were high in the school royalty. You know? And they always made fun of kids that were different from them in anyway. I always knew what that was like, because that happened to me all throughout middle school. I vowed in the 8th grade to make that different. So the summer before freshman year I asked my brother to help me to be like him. That he did. At first I was a monster, I was just like him. But then I just laid back and watched from the sidelines. I was on the football team but I never let myself become one of those dumb jocks. Not again. So I was always cool with everyone, my friends were always the major jerks and I always felt bad for the people on the receiving end but sometimes I had to play along. Like in your case, that was me playing along. But now I decided I don’t care. There’s something about you that made me see that I could be so much better.”

“Wow.”
“Well, its not as bad as the other shit. The other shit doesn’t have as much to do with this though, it just made me want to better myself. To never be like my dad.”
“…why?”
“Later”
“Okay, well I’m hungry, come with me to the kitchen?”
“Sure”
“Do you want something to eat?”
“I don’t know. What do you have?”
“I’m not sure…I’m a vegetarian so its mostly vegetarian stuff.”
“Fine by me”
“You’re vegetarian?“No but the food doesn’t bother me.”
“Okay, do you want a veggie burger? They’re delicious.”
“Sure”
“Okay” he said sitting down at the table.
I opened the freezer and got out the box of veggie burgers. I put them in the toaster oven and went to the cabinet and got out the bread, I got the cheese and all that nice stuff out of the fridge and it wasn’t until I was completely done making the sandwiches that I noticed my mother standing in the doorway.
“Jeezus woman! Warn a girl before you walk into a room” I said startled. Seth turned around at that and saw my mother staring at him with the stupidest look on her face(she was drunk of course)
“Young man, what are you doing in my kitchen?”
“Mom, he’s my friend from school that I told you about the other day, don’t you remember?” I said walking over to her
“No!” she said back-handing me across the face.
“Mom, what the fuck! We have company!”
“Shut the fuck up!” she said hitting me again, this time I let myself fall on the floor and she just continued hitting my eye this time and my head and my back.
“Hey! Leave her alone!”
“Wh-“ my mom started to say but she was interrupted by Seth picking her up and holding her in a firm grip.
“Becca! Get up and go to your room get clothes and meet me in the car!”
“What?’
“Trust me!”
With that I got up and went to my room I hurried as much as I could, it was hard though ‘cause I was crying and when I heard struggle coming from the kitchen I started crying even more, I was scared that this would change his view of me and that maybe he wouldn’t want to be my friend anymore cause my mother beat him up. I finished and ran out of the house, screaming Seth’s name on the way. When I got t the car I jumped in, put my bag on the floor and hugged my knees on the seat and just cried and heaved for what seemed like hours.


Seth
“Hey…” I said getting into the car stroking her back trying to help her calm down. It didn’t work much.
“Okay, I’m bringing you to my house”
“WHAT?” she said louder than I expected. I pulled over and looked at her.
“Listen, I’m not leaving you in a house while your mother is treating you like that, I wont have it.”
“Okay, but what about your family? Aren’t they going to have like hemmorages?”
“Yeah, but I don’t care about that as much as I care whether or not I’ll see you tomorrow. That was extreme I never realized that it was that bad.”
“Yeah…” she said looking up at me when I noticed that she had a huge black eye.
“Holy shit! Becca, you have a huge black eye!”
“Great…are you serious?”
“look in the mirror” as she looked in the mirror she started to cry again.
“Hey…hey…come here…you don’t have to cry.” I reassured pulling her into a hug.
“I’m sorry that you’re involved with my stupid family problems now.”
“There isn’t anywhere I’d rather be…lets go”
“Okay” she said keeping her head on my shoulder as I started driving again. We had been driving for about 15 minutes when we heard “Cuz it’s the besssssst of both worlds, chill it out take it slow, then you rock out the show!” I looked at her quizzically as she frantically looked for the source.
“Hello? What do you want? No! Leave me alone! I hate you! Don’t ever speak to me again, you screwed up your chance and you don’t get another one” she said hanging up.
“This is NOT my day”
“Who was that?”
“My ex-boyfriend”
“Oh. I’m not even gonna ask, that can be for another day”
“Thanks” she said smiling.
“So, Hannah Montana ehh?”
“Oh my god, shush!”
I started laughing hysterically. “I can’t believe you listen to Hannah Montana!” I said pulling into my drive-way, we got out of the car and walked up to the door and I was still laughing.
“Oh, shush, don’t act like you don’t have some guilty pleasure, I bet you like High School Musical!”
“Not even” I said opening the front door and walking up the stairs to my room with her right behind me.
We sat on my bed and talked and laughed for about an hour before my mother walked in, “Seth, who’s the charity case?”
“MOM! She’s not a charity case, she’s my…girlfriend!”
“What?!” my mother and Becca said simultaneously.
“She’s my girlfriend, mom.” I said looking at Becca hoping she would get the point to play along.
“Uh, uh, Okay…I’m…Uh, Okay” my mother stuttered walking out of the room. When she left I closed the door and locked it.
“What did you do that for?!” Becca demanded.
“I don’t know. It was the only thing that came to my head.”
“Okay, but now she thinks we’re going out, what are we supposed to do?”
“Well, its not like it would hurt us physically to pretend we’re going out.”
“Of course it is! I’l have to kiss you”
“Excuse me?”
“I’m just kidding… it was a joke…calm down”
“Vey funny”
“I know, I crack myself up!”
“Hmmm”
“Hmmm, what? What are you thinking?”
“I’m thinking that your right we are gonna have to kiss and I guess that it would be kind of weird considering the fact that we only just started to kind of become friends and stuff.”
“well yeah, but we wont have to kiss in front of your parents, right?”
“Yeah, but my brother and sister wont have it, they’ll think that I’m playing with your head so them we’d seriously have to put on a show.”
“How do I know you’re not just saying this so that you can kiss me?”
“’Cause if I wanted to kiss you I’d have done it already, its not like I haven’t before.”
“True” she said blushing.
“Hey…”
“What?”
“Nothing…”
“What???” she said taking a step closer to me.
“Nothing…” I said backing up against the door. She walked up to me so that I was trapped between her and the door. She was so close to me just staring into my eyes, I could feel her breath on my mouth.
“Wh-what are y-you d-doing?” I said I could feel my face getting hot.
“Nothing…” she said tuning around slowly and walking to my bed and sitting down.
“What was that for? “
“I don’t know…I thought it was fun.” She said smiling weakly
“Yeah? You think this is fun?” I said walking over to her and crouching over her body as she lay down on my bed I looked at her and smiled as I realized she was really nervous.

Allie
I started to breathe really heavily seeing as how this guy was crouching on top of me just staring at me and smiling.
“So?”
“So what?” I said with fake confidence
“You think this is fun?”
“Why wouldn’t I?”
‘Why would you? You don’t feel trapped?”
“Not really…”
“But…” he said giving up and looking to the side.
“But I have my reasons”
“And they would be?”
“this…” I said kissing him short and sweet on the lips.
“Oh… I guess that’s an okay reason but I have a better one…”
“Really?” I asked intrigued. He got off of me and sat next to me, I sat up and looked at him with a questioning look on my face. He looked at me, moved his face closer and put his hand on my cheek. I closed my eyes in anticipation. He leaned in and kissed me, he kissed me in a way I had never been kissed before, there was so much passion in it, I could tell that he actually cared about me, and I wrapped my arms around his neck and lay back on the bed. It got seriously heavy for about ten minutes until someone started knocking feverishly on the door and we quickly separated from each other.
“What?” he said to the person behind the door
“Can you like, let me in?” said a girl with an overdone Legally Blonde like accent.
“My sister he said to me walking to unlock the door, I looked at him with fear and watched as she walked through the door.
“So it is true! You do have some loser bummy looking girl living here. What’s wrong with you??”
“Elle! Shut the fuck up. Don’t talk about her like that. She’s my girlfriend, and she’s gonna be living her for a couple of days because of some stuff she’s going through and I don’t need you or Bobby giving her a hard time, okay?” he finished out of breath and heaving.
“Jeez, I didn’t know she meant that much to you.”
“Yeah, well she does.”
“Okay, well can I at least give her some clothes to wear?”
“No. She has her own”
“Yeah but is mom really going to be able to live with the way she dresses?”
“True…why are you being so understanding about this?”
“Because, you’re the only one of us that actually broke away from the mold…While I would never do that I guess I kind of respect that and I give you some props.”
“Thanks…”
“No problem…” she said turning to me with a smile, “I’m Elle by the way…What’s your name?”
‘I’m uh Becca”
“Hey, well in a little while your gonna wanna come pay me a visit because if your gonna be staying here you’re gonna wanna play the role at the dinner table so you can borrow some of my clothes.”
“Thanks, that’s really generous of you” I said smiling.
“No problem…later..” she said walking out of the room closing the door behind her.
“So how is this working for you?” he asked turning to me
“It’s a lot less painful than I figured, thank you for ding this, I really appreciated it you know, you really have no idea.”
“It’s really no problem…”
“You know something?”
“What?”
“You’re a really good kisser” I said with a smirk.
“ha ha…thanks”
“you’re welcome”
“You too ya know”
“thankies” I said blushing and looking at the floor
“I have a question…”
“Yeah?”
“Well…”
“Hmmm?”
“Do you maybe wanna be my girlfriend? Like literally and not just for my parents and crap?”
“Yeah, I’d like that a lot” I said walking over to him and putting my hands around his neck and putting my face on his chest, he put his arms around my waist and burrowed his face into my shoulder. “Thank you” I whispered into his chest.
“For what?” he questioned looking at me with concern
“Everything…I mean you apologized to me, no as ever done that, out of all the times I’ve been ridiculed and bothered you’re the first and that means a lot. You practically saved me from my mother and that seriously means more to me than anything. And on top of everything you’re letting me stay in your house. I owe you practically my life.”
“It’s really okay, I like you, I can’t even figure it out, I just do your so real and I don’t know” him saying that was so cute and sweet, there was nothing I could do other than kiss him, so I did. I kissed him hard and it made him kind of rock on his feet and we started laughing and then we fell backwards back onto the bed and we started laughing even more. That moment ended shortly when his mother called down for dinner.
“Shit” he said as his sister came by and threw some clothes in the room and then was gone. I walked over to the small heap of clothes that consisted of a pink v neck shirt, blue boot cut jeans and a black long-sleeved shirt.
“My mother has a dinner dress code, just so you know.” He said taking off his shirt. Turning around quickly, I said, “Your not kidding are you?”
“No, im very serious, look at this” he said walking in front of me. He was wearing a blue argyle sweater vest, and tan slacks.
“Oh my god” I said laughing in hysterics. It was the funniest thing I had seen.
“Yeah yeah, get your laugh on, let’s see how you look, okay?”
“Okay, go out then”
“Leaving...” when he left I quickly got dressed and looked at myself in the mirror. I looked like a Malibu Barbie with black hair and too much dark make-up. When I opened the door he was standing there staring at me with a huge smirk on his face.
“Shut up, let just get this over with okay? I don’t want to hear anything out of your mouth”
“What? I wasn’t even saying anything”
“Mmhmm…okay” I said rolling my eyes and following him down the stairs and into the Dining room. Wow, I haven’t seen a decent looking Dining room in I don’t know how long. It’s kind of nice. He motioned to me to sit in the middle of the table between Elle and him. His mother and father walked in and sat at opposite ends of the table, his brother arrived shortly after. This isn’t that bad. I had noticed though, that Bobby had began to grow a cold sweat, so maybe I spoke too soon.

We said grace which was something completely new to me, not to mention weird but I got through it and then we ate, well they did. There wasn’t much for me to eat, seeing as how I’m a vegetarian, I guess his mother noticed this and she questioned me on it.
“Excuse me…Erm…”
“Rebecca? Mom?”
“Yes, I’m sorry, I didn’t catch your name earlier. Rebecca, Is there a problem?”
“No ma’am, why would there be?”
“Well, you’re not eating much, do you have an eating disorder?”
“Oh! No, no, I don’t it just that I’m a vegetarian, that’s all” I said blushing embarrassedly.
“Oh, that’s interesting…tell us more about yourself Rebecca”
“Um, Well, I just moved here from Orange County, where I used to live with my mother, father, and brother. But unfortunately my parents got a divorce and my mother got custody of me since I’m only 16.”
“Ohhh…how…interesting…What about school?”
“I’m an AP student, all of my classes are in AP and I have an 85 average”
“Excellent”
“Thanks”
“Seth, you could learn a lot from this one”
Seth? Why did she call Bobby Seth? I looked at him and his eyes were closed and he was pinching the bridge of his nose, I now realized the reason for his cold sweat, I got really irritated at this and just continued talking with his mother.
“Yeah, Seth, maybe I could help you study in school, and you can help me be more active in gym” I said with a sarcastic smile.
“So, Rebecca, what’s your mother like?”
“Oh um, well, she’s not that great of a person…you don’t wanna hear about her.”
“Of course I do”
“Okay, well she’s an alcoholic, she’s physically and verbally abusive, and she’s addicted to anti-depressants. In other words she’s a substance abusive whore…”
“Young lady! I will not have that kind of talk ay my table!”
“But, you asked!”
“Do not talk back to me!”
“Excuse me? I don’t mean to be rude, but I’m not really talking back to you, I’m defending myself, and in all fairness I warned you that it was nothing you wanted to here about, you pressed on and I told you, I don’t think that you should get upset with me for telling the truth.”
“Young Lady, I do not appreciate it when people talk to me in your tone, so please either change your tone, or leave the table”
“Okay, well before I leave the table, I’d like to say this: I don’t know where you get off being rude like you are to me, first you call me a charity case! Then you ask me about my life and I tell you as much as I can, all truth and when you hear something you don’t like you get upset with ME? I don’t think so, I was only telling you what you wanted to hear.” I said getting up and storming out of the house.


Seth
I got up and ran after her. What the fuck did I just get her into. I ran out the door and I couldn’t find her anywhere.
“Becca!” I called her name a million times walking into the town center around the corner of my house. I had been searching for about an hour when my phone started vibrating. I looked at it and it said that I had gotten an IM from Allie.
“Hey, thank god you’re online” she wrote
“Hey, what’s wrong?”
“I was at a friends house and I got into a fight with them…kind of.”
“Oh, I’m sorry, yeah, my girlfriend just ran out of my house and I’m trying to find her.”
“Oh, I was gonna ask you if you could come meet me somewhere.”
“Sure, I mean I’ve been searching for like an hour, its fine, where are you?”
“I’m in a computer lab place in the town center next to Evergreen place.”
“Oh okay, I’m on the corner of Evergreen and Crescent street, I’ll be there in a few.”
“Okay”
“I’m wearing a blue argyle sweater vest so you know its me…”
User is not available.
Great. How am I supposed to meet her if she doesn’t know how to figure out who I am? Whatever. I walked into the computer place and saw Becca sitting at a computer with her back to me. I sat down next to her quietly.
“Hey…”
“Ugh… what are you doing here, Bobby? Or should I say Seth? How could you lie to me?!” she said getting up and storming out on me once again.
“Hey! Wait a second, you need to give me a chance to explain myself” She stopped and turned around as I caught up to her.
“You have about 30 seconds and then I’m walking away”
“Okay, I told you my name was Bobby because when I came to this school even though I was registered as Seth, I told everyone to call me bobby.”
“fifteen seconds”
“Okay. Okay, I wanted to make a new name for myself so that people would know the new me, and not the loser me.”
“Mhmm…”
“And, I told you because since everyone, knew me by Bobby, I didn’t want to fuck it up, and having everyone asking why does she get to call you Seth…blah blah blah”
“Okay, well whatever…” she said turning around to walk away, but before she got anywhere I took her arm and held her there. She looked up at me in surprise.
“Listen to me, I didn’t do it to hurt you, you know that right?”
“Yeah…”
“Okay, well we need to go back to my house”
“we can’t! I just got into a huge fight with your mother!”

“It’s fine. I don’t care. She was out of line.”
“Bob- I mean Seth” she said looking at me sternly, “I don’t feel comfortable with you making so many drastic changes in your life and fighting and creating tension between people you’ve known for all of your life when you’ve only known me for less then a week.”
“Becca. I understand your concern, but forgive me if I don’t listen.” She looked at me with a puzzeled yet annoyed look on her face.
“No, I mean you don’t understand the impact you’ve had on my life, yeah it’s only been a couple of days but there’s just something about you that makes me really happy inside. I don’t know what it is yet but I intend to find out. I really like you” I said giving her a sweet kiss on the mouth.
“okay…” she said walking around me in the direction of my house.
“Hey! Wait up!” I said walking up to her putting my arm around her waist and she copied. I smiled enjoying this nice moment of bliss. The moment was interrupted with the infectious tune of yet another Hannah Montana song. I looked at her trying to hide the laughter.
“You. Shut up. Hello…No….leave me alone…I’m not telling you where I am….just go back home…no…I don’t love you…shut up! bye!”
“You okay?”
“Yeah, let’s go”
“Okay…” I said not wanting to push it I’d ask her later. We walked the rest of the way in a silence that wasn’t really awkward but it was kind of tense. We got to my house I opened the door and let her go in before me. We were half way up the stairs when we heard my mother screaming at me from the living room.
“Go in my room, and lock the door. I’ll be there in a minute.” I whispered, she didn’t answer just obeyed.
“Yes, mother?” I said walking around the corner
“I don’t want that girl living in my house, she disrespected me!”
“Mom, with all do respect, you disrespected her, and you were out of line. And If you’re kicking her out, your kicking me out, she has no where to stay and…yeah.’
“Fine, then, get out! I will not have you replace me with some stupid chick you probably picked up off the street. If you wanna be with her you are no longer welcome here!”
“Mom, this isn’t a threat, but you’re so lucky that I wont stoop to your level and that even though you’re an evil bitch goddess I still love you, because if I didn’t I would have smacked you.” I said angrily walking out of the room.

Allie
I was laying face down on his bed crying into his pillow when he walked into the room and slammed the door. I didn’t want him to see me crying again so I left my face in the pillow. I felt his weight next to me on the bed and he started to stroke my back.
“Are you okay?” he whispered
“No, are you?”
“No”
I turned over and looked at him from the bed. His eyes were pink and he looked like he wasn’t breathing.
“Oh my god. What happened? Are you breathing?” he exhaled sharply and looked at me in the eyes. I looked at his eyes, the hurt and fear in his eyes with concern.
“Sweetie, talk to me, what happened?”
“My…mom…kicked…me…out…” he said between heavy breaths.
“Oh, honey, come here” I said pulling to him and laying on the bed, with him laying on my chest for a minute.
“I don’t even care that much, its just it makes me so angry, she’s so selfish and she really just kicked me out because I refused to let her kick you out. She doesn’t care about anyone other than herself, if it weren’t for the fact that I was her son, I doubt I would be here right now.”
“Shhh… its okay, we can g to my house, or to a hotel or something, I have money…and we can figure out what to do then.”
“Okay, well…lets get going,I don’t wanna stay here longer than I have to.” He said getting up and pulling out a big luggage thing out of his closet. “Do me a favor?”
“Of course”
“Can you just put as much of my clothes in there as possible? I’m gonna go say goodbye to my sister and brother”
“Of course, no problem”
“Thanks…” he said walking out of the room
“Hey…” I called after him
“Hmmm?” he said, with a weary look on his face, I walked over to him and put a hand on his cheek, he put his hand on top of mine and closed his eyes.
“Everything is going to be alright, I promise, just as long as we’re there for each other”
“Thank you” he said kissing my hand then walking out of the room.

Seth
I walked into Elle’s room first and closed the door quietly behind me.
“Hey, you wanna knock?”
“Sorry…” I said solemnly
“What the hell happened? Did you like not fond your girlfriend?”
“No, I found her she’s in my room…packing”
“What?!”
“Mom kicked me out because she’s mad at Becca and she said she couldn’t stay here. So I told her if she goes, then I go and she said fine get out”
“So you’re really leaving?”
“Yup”
“Well, I give you a lot of props and I hope everything works out, call me when you have everything situated. I still wanna keep in touch with you”
“Will do” I said walking out of her room and going next door and walking into my brother’s room.
“Hey, Robbie…I’m moving out.”
“No shit! Really?”
“Yeah, mom is mad and shit and she wanted me to kick out my girlfriend, and I was like no mom, you were out of line and she got mad and kicked me out… so I’m just saying bye. I’ll keep in touch with you and Elle.”
“Kay dude, good luck”
“Thanks” I exited the room and was on my way back to my room when I saw Becca come out of the door with what looked like rivers of tears flowing down her eyes. I ran to her. It was my turn to help her feel better.
“Babe, Babe, babe, what happened?” I asked when I noticed a figure in my door way. It was my father, great.
“Babe, get our stuff, and go get in the car. Lock the doors.” I said handing her the keys, she ran down the stairs and out the door. I looked at my father with hate burning in my eyes.
“What did you do?”
“I did nothing; I just put her in her place. Who is she to come into my house and disrespects my wife and changes my son. In a matter of hours? I don’t think so.”
“Who the fuck are you to say anything like that? You have no right to start defending your “family” when you’ve done nothing but hurt us all throughout our lives! Don’t even start pretending to be a model father, because you’re anything but that! You beat and cheat on your wife, and you beat your children. Screw you! You fucking bastard!” I said turning and walking towards the stairs but I wasn’t fast enough. He grabbed my arm spun me around and back handed me across the face. I countered that with a hard punch in the face, right in the bride of his nose. He staggered back and fell against the wall.
“You son of a bitch” he sputtered with blood gushing from his nose.
“Now you know what it feels like to be on the receiving end of that.” I said running down the stairs and to my car. I knocked on the window, Becca; not knowing that I was there jumped and opened the door with relief realizing it was me. I slid into the seat next to her and locked the door after me. I just sat there with my hands on the wheel for a minute breathing hard. I was jerked out of my anger induced rage with Becca’s soft voice.
“Seth, what happened?”
I turned to her and searched her face, trying to read the expressions behind her eyes.
“Tell me first, what did my father say to you?”
“He said that I had no right to be there and that I was a disgrace and that…that…he didn’t care where I came from, that I should return there and never come back because everyone would be better off not knowing me.”
“I cannot believe he said that to you! I’m so sorry! You know that’s not true! Look at what you’ve done for me, you’ve made me a better person. Don’t you dare believe a single word he said!”
“I know, its just that kind of thing still hurts.”
“I know, we wont have to deal with him ever again though, so lets just go find a hotel and get some rest” I said starting the car.
“Tell me what happened after I left.”
“He told me that he ‘put you in your place’ and that he thought you had no right to be in my house and change me and disrespect his wife and blah blah blah. I told him off and punched him in the face” I said skipping the part about him beating us.
“You didn’t have to punch him you know”
“I did, believe me I did.”
“why?”
“I’ll tell you another time. I don’t feel much like talking about it” I pulled into a hotel parking lot parked the car and went inside. I got us a room with the bank card my parents had gotten me when I was a kid. We walked up to the room and threw ourselves on the bed. I had my arm around her waist cuddling with her unti yet another Hannah Montana interruption.
“I’m starting to really hate that”
“I’m sorry. Hello? Chase, I told you already, leave me alone. I don’t love you anymore, we’ve had this discussion already. Go home! If you call me again I’m changing my number.” She said turning off her phone and throwing it across the room.
“Who’s Chase?”
“Oh…um…my ex boyfriend”
“Oh…”
“I promise, I’ll explain everything to you tomorrow, but I’m really tired and I don’t feel like talking about it right now, it’ll make me more upset, can we just go to sleep?”
“Yeah, don’t worry, its fine, tomorrow we can figure out what we’re gonna do with this whole situation okay?”
“Okay, goodnight babe.”
“Night baby” I kissed her tenderly on the lips and turned out the light, within 10 minutes I was dead asleep.

Allie
In the morning I woke up next to Seth in a really unfamiliar place. I sat up in a daze and looked around the room trying to remember why I was here. I felt drunk.
“Morning” Seth mumbled sleepily next to me.
“Hey…” I said looking at him with confusion.
“What’s wrong?”
“I don’t remember coming here, where are we?”
“Ha ha, babe, we’re in a hotel room, I got kicked out of my house last night and I refuse to let you go back to yours.”
“Ah, I remember now.” I said smiling and laying back down
“So besides figure crap out today, what do you want to do?”
“I don’t know, I need to tell you what that conversation was about last night”
“Oh…”
“It’s nothing that bad its just..irritating.”
“Okay, go ahead”
“Wait, can we get breakfast first? I’m starving” and right on cue my stomach growled like no tomorrow. Seth looked at my stomach with confusion
“Do you have like a monster in there?”
“Ha ha ha! No I just told you. I’m starving!”
“Okay, lets go get some food” Seth said getting up. I got up and followed him to the door. I stopped to get my purse and my phone as he opened the door.
“Who the fuck are you?” I heard a familiar voice say, I walked over the the door with a look of both fear and uncertainty. To my horror when I got to the door I saw everything I feared. Seth was face to face with my stupid ex-boyfriend who was apparently drunk.
“Who the fuck are you?” Seth countered.
“I’m Chase…I’m her ex-boyfriend but soon to be boyfriend…who the FUCK are you?”
“I’m Seth. I’m her current boyfriend, and I don’t think your going anywhere near her.”
“Oh yeah? What are you gonna do about it?”
“Well if you don’t get out of our doorway I’m gonna punch you in the face”
“Yeah….okay…not before I punch you” he said taking a swing at seth’s face, missing and spilling his bottle of rum on to our carpet.
“What the hell, man?! Get outta here!”
“No not until she takes me back”
“She’s not going to so just leave!” Seth said turning around but at that moment Chase got a hold of himself and grabbed Seth’s arm, Seth turned around and punched him in the face. It was then that I snapped out if it and screamed.
“Seth!” I said running over to him.
“Babe, its okay, stay over there, I don’t want you getting hurt”
“But Se-“
“It’s okay…just do it” he said getting up, he looked at Chase right in the eye and punched him back, this started off a huge fight. I stayed on the bed because they were fighting all over the place. When I realized that I shouldn’t just be sitting there like a lump I got up.
“STOP!” I screamed but they didn’t stop they continued.
“SETH! CHASE! STOP IT RIGHT NOW OR IM WALKING OUT OF THIS ROOM!” with that they stopped and sat there glaring.
“Seth sit on the bed. Chase stay right where you are” I said sternly. I got off the bed as Seth sat down. I stood in the middle of the room and looked at both of them.
“You guys are so childish. There was no need for you guys to fight over me. Seth you know how much I care about you, I’m not going anywhere, especially not with him; And Chase I don’t even know how you go here but you know that everything between us is over. You cheated on me, and there is no excuse for that. I don’t care how sorry you are”
“But babe ple-“
“No, I’m not your baby. Now get out”
“I’m not leaving. I’ve been following you all night and…” he trailed off noticing the horror that had set in my face.
“YOU’VE BEEN FOLLOWING ME?”
“yeah…”
“YOU FUCKING PSYCHO! GET OUT!!!”
“Can I use…oh god…” he said getting up and running to the bathroom
“jesus” I said running after him to help

Seth
I can’t believe whats going on. My girlfriends ex-boyfriend and I just got into a huge fight and now she’s helping him throw up in our bathroom. Maybe I’m overreacting. Just then she walked back into the room.
“Seth, I’m so sorry for everything that’s happened…this is basically what I wanted to talk to you about it. I’m really sorry, as soon as he leaves we’ll talk. I promise.”
“Okay…” I said looking at the floor.
“Wait are you mad at me?”
“No, I’m just…just go help him before he goes and vomits all over the hotel bathroom.”
“No, are you really mad at me because of this?”
“Just go help him…” I said walking over to the window.
“I can’t believe this.” She said walking back into the bathroom. For the next like half an hour I just lay on the bed on my side staring at the wall. I was so irritated, at her and at myself. Chase and her came back into the room laughing and all the works. I turned arund to look at them when I saw him plant one on her. That was it. I’d had enough, I could deal when she was helping him puke and I could deal when she got mad and me and walked back into help him, but this? This was over the edge.
“THAT’S IT!”
“Seth, calm down”
“No, I wont I had to sit there while this asshole came in and puked in my hotel bathroom, and proclaimed his drunken love for my girlfriend. But I will not sit her and watch him kiss you. Fuck that!” I said storming out of the hotel room.
Maybe I was overreacting. I really didn’t care, I was angry and I wasn’t about to stay in the same room with my source of anger. I got in my car and just drove. I wasn’t driving to anywhere in particular, just driving. I got on the free-way and just drove. I’d been driving for about 45 minutes when my cell phone started to ring, I looked at the caller id and saw Becca’s number. I hit ignore and just turned up the volume to the radio. She left me a voicemail that I didn’t feel like listening to so I just kept driving.

Allie
“I can’t believe your seriously deserting me like this, it’s not my fault that this happened. I thought you were a rally cool guy but I guess I was wrong; you’re a coward just like I thought from the beginning. Don’t worry about me, I have money, and of course I could always go back to my house. Come back if you want but I might not be here when you do.” I said unhappily into his voice mail, I can’t believe that he was seriously acting this way, I mean I could kind of understand before when he was ticked that he was even there but I mean I’m not a bitch so I’m not gonna just let him throw up all over the place with no help. It was then that I noticed a computer In the corner.
“Allie…”
“Yeah, Chase?”
“Help me?”
“Yeah, what do you need?” I said concerned walking over to the bathroom
“Water?” he said lacking energy
“Sure no problem I said getting a glass of water for him from the small fridge that was in the area that they pretended was a kitchen.
“here you go” I said lightly handing him the cup
“Thanks Al, I really appreciate it. And I’m sorry if I caused any trouble to you and your boyfriend.”
“Are you serious?”
“Yeah, I mean I know I went a little overboard, but I have done nothing but think of you since we broke up. and I got drunk last night and was driving around here cause I knew that you moved here. And when I saw you in the truck with that I guy I followed you, and I was waiting in the parking lot all night to see if you would come out or something and I had been drinking then too, and then this morning I got tired of waiting and came up here…and you know the rest.”
“Yeah I do, I know that you’re sad, but you have to understand that there wont be anything between us anymore, you cheated on me and you know that I’m never gonna forgive you for that.”
“I know, I’m sorry”
“It’s not okay, but we can still be friends.”
“okay”
“Now I suggest that you get some sleep, I’m gonna be on the computer so I’m here if anything, okay?”
“Okay…” he said sadly getting up and getting into the bed, falling asleep almost immediately. I walked over the computer turning it on, as it loaded my phone started t sing its familiar ringtone of Hannah Montana’s “The Best of Both Worlds” I smiled at the song and as I looked at the caller id frowned. It was Seth. I didn’t answer, he didn’t answer my calls, why should I answer his?
A minute later my voice mail rang to the familiar sounds of Amy Winehouse’s Back To Black. I dialed my voice mail and listened to the message he left me:
“Becca, I’m not apologizing for anything. I don’t care if you stay there or not, I’m not coming back so you can just you now…whatever.” Wow. What a comeback.
“Loser” I stated out loud as I signed on to AIM.
Friday 4:15 pm
BurnItRight: Hey sorry I missed you last night, I ran into my girlfriend and we made up and stuff.
AllieIsRadxCore: Oh its cool, cause I ran into my friend too and yeah. But at the moment I wish I hadn’t stayed with him all night.
BurnItRight: Oh, why?
AllieIsRadxCore: some bad shit went down. Ugh. Its just bad shit, I don’t even wanna go into it right now.
BurnItRight: Oh, I know the feeling. I got into a huge fight with my girlfriend today, and maybe I overreacted, but im not gonna admit that. I’m still a bit irked…
AllieIsRadxCore: but??
BurnItRight: but I miss her, and I really do like her but im a really jealous person and I tend to have an overactive temper.
AllieIsRadxCore: Well maybe you should talk to her
BurnItRight: Maybe…later.
AllieIsRadxCore: Okay, well just let me know how it goes.
BurnItRight: No problemo.
At that moment Chase stirred in his sleep moaning and kind of wailing. Hmmm.
AllieIsRadxCore: Well, I have to go, have a friend over and he’s sick so I need to go take care of him.
BurnItRight: okay.
AllieIsRadxCore: My away message is gonna be up so if you need anything just i.m. me and I’ll most likely answer within a few minutes…unless I fall asleep. =]
BurnItRight: Okay Dokay.
AllieIsRadxCore went away at 4:35 pm

I went and sat next to Chase on the bed and turned on the T.V., nothing was really on so I left it on some infomercial about a cake maker thing and fell asleep.
“Becca” I turned around quickly hoping to be face to face with Seth. But when I turned around I found nothing but darkness. It was an unfamiliar darkness, it was way eerie and I wanted to do nothing but get out of this strange fantasy world.
“Seth?” I called out and heard nothing in return but my echo.
“Becca?” I heard Seth calling to me, even closer than before. And I turned around immideatley. This time I wasn’t face to face with nothing, I was face to face with a horrible looking take on Seth. It was terrifying…it was like..it had embodied all the feelings that he had when he left me in the room. Anger, betrayal, sadness, fear…all of them mixed together were too much to bear and I started to cry, stroking his face. I missed him so much.
“Seth…” I sobbed.
“Becca…” he said closing in on me as if for a kiss but then it turned into a horrible wailing scream in the face.

“AAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHH!”
“Allie! Allie! Wake up!” Chase said shaking me awake from my awful nightmare. I sat there gasping for breath with tears of fear and dread falling from my eyes.
“Seth…” I whispered getting up and going to the bathroom.
“Allie, Allie…”
“I’m fine, I just…I just…fuck…” I said collapsing on the floor in tears. “This is just too much for me to bear.”
“Talk to me, I’m sober now so I can actually comprehend things”
“New school, people treat me like shit. I miss my brother. The one person that I actually trusted on a whim just walked out on me and my mother is bitchier than ever. This is just too hard.”
“It’s the weekend, come back to OC with me. It doesn’t have to mean anything, just comeback with me and Sunday afternoon I’ll let your brother borrow my car to drive you back.”
“ I don’t know…”
“Come On, Al, it’ll be fun you can come and see Oh and everyone. Come on, please?” he begged.
“Fine…” I said reluctantly opening the door.
As soon as the door was open wide enough Chase enveloped me into a huge hug and all over again I just let go. I started crying into his shoulder. Big heaving sobs, it was like I couldn’t breathe. I just cried and cried and cried, for what seemed like hours. And he just held me, while my body shook with heave after heave. I eventually fell asleep sniffling on his chest.
I woke up what felt like a few hours later on the bed under the covers in complete darkness and I thought iw as dreaming again and I got scared.
“Chase?” I whispered nervously.
“Yeah?” he said startling me so much that I let out a squeal that made him laugh.
“That wasn’t funny, I thought I was dreaming again and I got really paranoid.”
“Well, its okay, you’re not dreaming this is very real.”
“Okay…” I said with reluctance written all over my face.
“So, are you still planning on coming back to OC with me?”
“yeah but I have to be in school on Monday so you have to make sure my brother can drive me back on Sunday”

“Okay, its no problem”
“Cool, I need to pay for another three days in the room, so that if he decides to come back his stuff is still here.” I said walking out of the room to the main office to quickly pay the fee. I returned to the room and went to the computer and saw a few i.m’s from the other Seth. Nothing that important, so I signed off and tidied up the room a bit. I wrote a note for my Seth letting him know where I was and stuff, I decided that I should probably call him and leave him a message as well, just in case he didn’t actually come back. As Chase and I got into his car I dialed Seth’s number, it rang a few times and too my surprise he answered.
“Hello?” he said glumly
“Hey…Um, I was just calling to say that I was going to Orange County with Chase to visit my brother, my father and my best friend. I paid for three more days at the hotel, just in case you decided to go back. I’ll be back Sunday so..I guess I’ll see you then or on Monday at school?”
“Yeah, that’s cool…I mean yeah that fine with me…”
“Seth…are you alright? You don’t sound too well.”
“Becca, don’t worry about me, I’m staying with Dean. We were drinking but its nothing to be worried about, I’ll see you Sunday… I have to go back to the room to get my school shit…and I guess f you want we can talk then…’
“Okay, that sounds great.”
“Bye…”
“Bye.” I said hanging up
“God, that was a bit painful.”
“why?”
“I don’t know, it felt so awkward…I mean its not like we broke up but since we met that’s the longest I’ve gone without talking to him…and he sounded so…I don’t know…drained. It was kind of scary”
“I’m sorry…I don’t know what to say…”
“It’s fine…I’m just gonna go to sleep, wake me up when we get there. I said climbing into the back seat and laying down draping my jacket over me.
“Okay, night”
“Night, and Chase?”
“Yeah, Al?”
“Thanks.”
“No problem”

I woke up to a vibration in my pocket and realized it was my cell phone. I had a text message. I stretched briefly and looked at my phone to see it was an IM from Seth...the other one.
BurnItRight:Hey..Whats up?
AllieIsRadxCore: nothing much going to Orange County with my friend, to go visit my brother and stuff.
BurnItRight: Oh...thats cool...my girlfriend and i got into a huge fight and now we're not really talking.
AllieIsRadxCore:Oh..sux..im mad at my bf too god. they should get married!
BurnItRight:yeah, and they you and i should ge together. lmao.
AllieIsRadxCore: hahaha. yeah that wouldnt be such a bad idea.=]
BurnItRight: It wouldnt?
AllieIsRadxCore: How could it? i mean besides the fact that we havent met in real life..there arent any drawback right? i mean we've never gotten into like..a fight or anything.
BurnItRight: True, true.
AllieIsRadxCore:lol..well not that i dont love talking to you cause you know i do. =] but, i'm getting a serious case of hand cramps from texting so much, so i'll call you later?
BurnItRight: Sure, thats like..progeression right? lol..just call me at my friend's house cause i have my phone turned off incase my gf calls. the number is 703 555 0115.

AllieIsRadxCore: Okie Dokie. talk to you later =]]]]

I went back to sleep and when i woke up i was in a bedroom unfamiliar to me.
"What the fuck?" i half whispered.
"Allie? you up?"
"yeah..." i said recognizing the voice, "Ryan?!!!"
"ALLIE!!" he said running into the room and enveloping me into the hugest bear hug i have ever had.
"Oh my god...I'm..so happy to see you!"
"me too!"
"How are you?" i asked sitting down on the bed and petting the space next to me.
"I'm okay...nothing much is new..but what about you? how have you been?"
"... well i have a boyfriend, but we got into a huge fight...yesterday...or today...how long have i been sleeping?"
"Only a few hours."

At that point i went into a huge detailed narrative of whats been going on in my life latley which you know already so i'm not gonna make you hear again.
“Thats kind of...intense."
"Tell me about it."
"I can't belive mom did that to you..."
"Yeah well...its all good now its not my priority to worry about that right now."
"Well lets go get something to eat the kitchen is downstairs"
"Okay, well i'm gonna run to the bathroom"
"Down the hall"
"okay.." i walked to the second door i saw figuring it was the bathroom. Then i heard a blood curdling scream. Louder than i've ever heard. It was about 2 minutes later that i realized it was me.
"Sorry, October. Sorry Chase..."

I walked down the hall to the actual bathroom that had the door ajar. I walked in and looked in the mirror, i was paler than pale. and i was heaving like i had just ran a ten mile marathon. My eyes were watery and had a shocked on them that looked like it would be stuck there permanently. I took a deep breath and washed my face with water and walked down the stairs to the kitchen. on the way, like my morning couldnt get sany worse i ran into October and Chase stumbling out of the bedroom.

"Allie..."

"Don't! i don't even want to deal with this right now. I'm going to spend my weekend here without fighting or crying okay? you can call me and tell me when i go back home. thats where all my problems reside and you can leave that one on my desk." i said with a sarcastic smile and walked quickly to the kitchen.

As I walked into the kitchen i saw Ryan making some delicious smelling breakfast and it almost made me forget what had just happened. And i would have, too, if it werent for the fact that my problem came running back at me.

"Allie..." October pleaded innocently.

"October. I don't care. I'm so over it right now, being betrayed over and over again? its getting fucking old. I'm done. So you guys can go and and continue having whatever it is you guys have together. It's fine with me. I'm not going to stop you, i have a boyfriend now so why should i care...besides the fact that you know, your my best friend...and you know theres like a rule but..WHATEVER!" I concluded, looking over at my brother who had a look on his face of either pure admiration or pure curiosity, i couldn’t tell which but either way it made me smile.
"Ryan, can we go eat out back? ALONE?"
"Yeah sure, No-"
"No! you can't!"
"What?" i said turning to Chase who was walking up to my face with a face i could only describe as great fury.
"Allie, your always running away from your problems and you wonder why you have so many back home. You never deal with them, why can't you just sit there and sort them out? one by one."
"Chase, this is not my problem, i'm not the one that betrayed me "best friend". And who are you to say anything...because at the moment all of my problems were caused because of you, yeah you may have brought me here and that made me happy for what 10 minutes? yeah. Thanks Chase for bringing me here to find out that you and my "best friend" are fucking."
"What problems could I have caused in your life? we live nowhere near each other."
"Lets see, you cheated on me with Veronica when i had only been gone for three days. You got me and my boyfriend into a huge ass fight that could have been avoided had you not followed us around drunk and begged for my forgiveness. And then this... so yeah, all of my current problems are your fault." i said flatly turning around and walking towards the backdoor. "Come on, Ryan" i said and he followed and when i turned around i noticed him mouthing to October and Chase.
"you guys really screwed up."

When we got outside i plopped down into the chair that was at the porch table(you know like the ones with those huge umbrellas for the summer). Ryan mirrored my actions sitting across from me and sliding a plate over to me. I stared at it.

"Eat" he encouraged.
"I can't this is too much to swallow"
"Dont let them ruin our day together"
"How could this have been going on? I talked to October on Tuesday and she told me he made out with Veronica."
"What?!" he exclaimed, his eyes almost popping out of his skull. "When?!"
"At some party? I guess...last weekend? I dont know"I said looking up at him, glancing at the stars.
"Are you serious?? She told you that? It's not true. I was at the party."
"You were? So what happened?"
"Veronica was trying to talk to him, but he wouldnt let her. and neither would October. I thought it was for your benefit...but I guess it was for her own.
"I cant believe she would lie to me like that"
"Yeah...you two have been friends for like...EVER...thats just..."
"Unbelievably horrible."I finished getting up.
"Where are you going?"
"I'll be right back, dont worry."

SETH

"Dude, i miss her so much!"
"Nah man, its just the booze talking"
"No.Dude. You don't even understand Its--"
"I do," he started, interrupting. "She's a good lay right? Lemme get at that when your done with that"
"Dick! she's not a piece of meat, and we havent even had sex yet, so shut the fuck up, its not even like that"
"So then what are you doing here? Why are you at my house?"
"Because we got into a fight. I told you this, did I not?"
"But i'm sayin if you 'like' her so much, even though your getting no nookie, why would you let this girls ex interfere, she's with you so you know she must want you"
"Dude, for an idiot you're pretty good with advice"
"Yeah, see? I can be a nice guy, why dont i have a girlfriend, huh?"
"I dont know man, we'll work on it." walking drunkenly towards the door.
"Where do you think you're goin' you're not driving anywhere in your state, drunkie" he said giggling drunkenly.
"Fine, I'll call a cab but i need to call her first."
"Kay" he said, his head knocking into the back of the chair signaling him passing out. I picked up my phone and dialed her number, after three rings she answered.

"Hello?"
"Hey, did i wake you up?"
"Nope, i'm eating on the back porch with my brother, whats up?"
"Um, nothing, I just wondered if it was okay if i came to see you, i have some things i wanna say and i dont want to wait till tomorrow"
"Yeah, thats fine, i'd like to see you, and my brother wants to meet you" she said with a smile in her voice.
"Great!...I mean.. how do i get there? I'm taking a cab."
"Why dont you just drive?"
"I'm a bit drunk and Dane took my keys.
"Go Dane! well, you're a very sober drunk. Just don't pull a Chase on me" she said laughing.
"No, no i wont, I'm sobering up as we speak, i'll be good by the time i get there. How long does it take?"
"Bout an hour, i think"
"Address?"
"Oh. Right. Its Uh...uh...Ryan? Address? Hold on"
"Okay" I said scratching my head.
"4321 Jones street"
"Oh okay. Cool. See You soon."
"Kay" she concluded hanging up.
Closing my phone, i turned around to face Dane. He was gone, passed out drunk. I wrote him a note and called a cab.
"Hey thanks for making this trip" I said greeting the taxi driver.
"Hey man, its no problem i had nothing else to do tonight."
"Well, its still appreciated"
"Your Welcome. So 4321 Jones Street Orange County right?"
"Yup"
"Okay man, just sit back and relax. We'll be there in record time. I got some good short cuts."
"Awesome. If i end up nodding off, just wake me up"
"You got it"
And with that i fell asleep as if right on cue.

I closed my phone, looked at my brother and smiled.
"What?"
"We have company!" i sang excitedly.
"Awesome! So in an hour?"
"Jessir!" I laughed
"Well someone needs to get ready"
"None of my clothes are here"
"Some of them are here, because when i moved out of dads i brought your clothes here so that when you decided to visit you'd have them"
"You are the best brother on the planet"
"I try. Come on" he said walking into the house,"What time is it, anyways?"
"Well according to the cable box its 11:50" i said following him up the stairs.
"Ry, how do you afford this?"
"Dad helps"
"Oh, cause i was gonna say i really dont believe that you can afford this place on your own?"
"ha ha yeah no, but we can go visit him tommrrow if you want"
"Yeah, that'd be great" i said digging through the pile of my clothes,"what do we have here?" i said pulling out a deep purple dress with silver stars.
"Cute?" i said showing my brother
"Very. Put it on! he'll love it!"
'"Okay" I said immediatley shedding my clothes, replacing them with the dress.
"Can you say gorgeous?"
"Thank you" I said walking into the bathroom. I was washing my face and doing my hair when october walked in, I tensed instantly.
"Wow, you look hot. Where you going?"
"Nowhere. as if its any of your business...my boyfriend is coming over."
"Oh, thats cool..."
"Yeah. But you're not going to meet him."
"...why?"
"Are you kidding? i'm not gonna make the same mistake twice, for you to get close to my boyfriend and then steal him away too. i'm not stupid!" i said walking away.
"Allie..."
"No, let me ask you something." i snapped.
"mhhmmm?" she said her voice cracking revealing the tiny bit of fear she was trying to hide.
"When you told me about Chase and Veronica, at the party?" i paused to survey her reaction,then with a sarcastic smile continued, walking toward her "Why'd you lie about that?hmm?did you think I wouldn't find out?"
"F-find out what?" she said backing away.
"Don't fucking lie to me! i'm through with that. Just tell me the truth!"
"Okay. At the party I had gotten drunk, but not enough that i couldnt control myself. I had always liked chase, and since you were gone I figured i had a chance now"
"And you didnt remember that i loved him? it just completley slipped your mind?"
"No...i knew...i just wanted him so bad and we were alone in a room and we started making out. I told you it was veronica because i dint want you to think i was an evil slut from hell." she finishedI can't looking at her toes.
"Yeah, how'd that work for you? i cant believe that i trusted you. I can't believe you did this to me. As of now we are no longer friends" i said flatly turning around again and walked out the door, running into the chase on the way.
"Allie, wait!"
"Don't even! and its Becca to you okay? Not that we're talking anymore anyways"
"Are you serious? "Becca"?"
"Very. You really expect me to be talking to either of you? are you serious?"
"Don't you think thats a little harsh?"
"Well lets see...you cheated on me with my best friend, three days after i left AND you lied and told me you made out with Veronica. So no, i dont think "thats a little harsh"" i said walking into my brothers room.
"Omg...whos that gorgeous girl walking into my room?"
"Thanks bro. You know despite everything i've had alot of fun. I'm happy seeing you, you put a smile on my face like no other" i confessed.
"Awww! Allie! you know i'm always here for you! he said returning my hug.
At that same moment i saw headlight idling in the driveway.
"Ooh! he's here!" i said running out of the door, down the stairs and out the front door. When i got to the front porch he was walking up the walkway. I stopped short and so did he. I smiled and so did he, i ran and he caught me. It was like that scene from the notebook, only better. AH-MAY-ZING. We were still kissing as the cab drove away and my brother made it downstairs.
"Ahem"
"Ooh, babe, the cutie behind me is my brother Ryan" I said getting down and pulling my brother closer. "Ryan, this is my babe Seth"
"Welcome to the family seth"
"Thanks Ryan, there's no where i'd rather be" he said kissing the top of my head.

"So are you hungry or something? Ryan is a great cook, he could make us something to eat and we can go and talk while we wait."

"That sounds cool"

"You don't mind right Ryan?"

"No problem, Becks" he said winking at me.

"Babe, go out back and sit at the the table or wherever and i'll be out in a second"

"No doubt babe,see you in a minute" he smiled walking outside.

I turned to Ryan hurriedly as soon as Seth was out of sight.

"How'd you know to call me Becca?"

"I don't know..."

"Tell me!"

"I heard you telling Chase and i figured she really wouldn't do that just cause she was mad at them...so i figured he was why."

"Oh, your good, you're very good." i said bumping my hip to his."See you in a few"

"Kay kay"

Walking towards the backyard i noticed to my horror that October was talking to Seth. I opened the sliding glass with one fluid movement. And again to my horror they were talking as if they were best friends.
"D-do you know each other?"
"Yeah babe, she's my cousin"
"You have GOT to be kidding me. I do not believe this." I said throwing my arms in the air and walking slowly up the stairs, Seth following close behind me.
"Babe whats wrong?"
"This day just keeps getting worse and worse. Just when i think everything's getting better it goes right back to shit" i said plopping gloomily down on the bed, tears streaming down my face.
"Baby..."
"What?" i whined looking up at him.

"Why are you crying?"
"She was my best friend up until about 45 minutes ago"
"What happened?"
"When i moved to San Francisco me and Chase were still together. But then he cheated on me. October told me that it was some slut but it was really her. They've been together ever since."
"Are You serious?"
"Yeah, i'm not speaking to either of them now"
"Wow"
"You can talk to her I don't care, but I'm not speaking to her."
"No, its fine, i understand, i'll talk to her later if i feel like it, i came to see you remember?"
“Yeah, what was it you wanted to speak to me about?"

SETH

I took a deep breath and looked her deep in the eyes.

"Oh no! your breaking up with me aren't you??" she asked frantically her eyes welling up again.

"No! no! babe, calm down, of course not!" i said sitting down next to her on the bed, wrapping my arm around her so she could lean on my chest.
"Okay..."
"I wanted to tell you i was sorry"
"For what?"
"Getting mad. I care about you so much, and i didnt mean to overreact this morning. I was jealous. I don't even know why. I know that your with me not him. I know that you chose me and i dont want to lose you because i got angry"
"Babe..."
"What?"
"You're amazing. And you know that i care about you too right? I did choose you. I'm sorry i got mad at you. You know i had a dream that you turned into this monster and you were gonna like kiss me and then you let out this horrible scream, it was filled with like pain and anger. Ugh, it was horrible, i was so scared. I woke up crying."
"Its okay now right? i'm not a scary monster right?"
"I don't know, you'll have to kiss me so i can figure it out." with that i kissed her deeply she pulled me on top of her and we were rolling around on the bed, her hands knotted in my hair and my hands around her waist and caressing her back.
"Babe"
"Yeah?"
"I have to tell you something"
"Hmm?"
I think I..."
"What?"

Allie
"I think I love you"
"What?"
"I know. I know its soon. Like O.D soon, but its just you've sacrificed so much for me and you really show me you care. How could i not?"
"Babe"
"Yeah?"

"I love you too"
"Knock-Knock" Someone was at my door and it wasn't Ryan.
"What do you want?"
"I need to talk to Seth"
"About what?"
"If I was gonna talk to you i would tell you already. Just open the door."
"It's not locked. Open it yourself." Chase opened the door then and walked in.
"Seth? Can we talk?"
"Sure man, whats up?" he said walking out of the room with him.
They were standing right outside my door so i could hear everything.
"listen, i'm really sorry for what happened earlier."
"It's okay, it actually made us closer." seth said with an obvious smile in his voice.
"Well...i just wanted to warn you...you look like a pretty nice guy, and i don't want you to go in blind"
"What are you talking about?"
"She has major problems. MAJOR problems. I just think you should know, so that later you don't think she's psycho."
"You mean like...that her mother sleeps around and is an alcoholic, that she beats her and shit like that? i know, and thats why i was paying for that hotel that you stumbled into. You know, its really sad you're ruining her chances at being happy....again. I never saw it untill now but some guys really are pigs...." he said walking back into my room.
i was sitting there stunned, with tears streaming down my face. I didnt even realize it until he asked me why i was crying.
"Thank you" was all i could say.

"For what? What's wrong?" he said dumb-foundedly, not realizing obviously that i could hear there whole conversation through the door.
"Nothing. forget it" i said wiping a tear from my face and walking through the door.
"Babe, where are you going?"

"Nowhere...stay here...Chase!!" i yelled walking down the stairs
"What do you want?"
"What the fuck?!" i said turning the corner of the living room standing behind
"What?"
"How dumb do you think i am?"
"What are you talking about?"
"How dare you say that about me?"
"He told you?"
"No. Don't play dumb. If you've been living here or spent any amount of time here you would know that these walls are paper thin. I heard every word you said. I can't believe you would betray me like that. AGAIN. you're unbelievable."
"Does it look like I care? Your just wasting your time."
"Chase!" October yelled from out of nowhere.

"What?"
"How could you do that? We already fucked her over once and then you see that she's happy WITHOUT you and you have to screw that up? We all know you still love her but you screwed that up and now you're left with nothing. How does it feel?"
"What?" he said a hint of despair in his voice.
"What?" i repeated completely .

"Oh don't play dumb just because she's standing right there. I'm not stupid. i know you're still in love with her its obvious. But you know you got yourself into this. You stayed with me when you had the chance to say no, you kissed ME, and i kissed you back. Like you got yourself into this. You had everything. You had the perfect girlfriend and everything and yeah i'm not gonna put the blame on you, if i wasn't a complete bitch i would have stopped you, but you screwed this up too. And now instead of having someone you kind of liked or just someone to fuck you have nothing." October said walking out of the house, leaving me standing there dumbfounded my jaw hanging and Chase standing there tomato red.
"Chase. Is that true?"
"No...I...Um...I gotta go." he said running out the door. "O, wait!"
"What just happened?" Ryan said coming up behind me.
"I'm not sure. But apparently he still loves me. I...I don't understand. He started dating her not a week after i left. And he still loves me. Thats crazy...It makes no sense."
"What are you gonna do?"
"Well, I obviously need to talk to him...but i'd rather wait till October isn't so mad. I mean i know she's gonna be mad for a while...but you know..."
"Yeah." he said hugging me
"Chase! leave me aloneee!!" October screamed running up the stairs.
"Be right back" i said running up the stairs after her. she ran into the bathroom and locked it. I knew she wasn't going to open the door so I went in through my room and as i passed i saw Seth laying on the bed.
"What's going on?"
"Crazy shit. i'll explain later."
"Kay"
i walked into the bathroom and found October sitting on the counter crying.
"Oh..."
"What?"
"I just wanted to say thank you and i'm sorry."
"What? For what?"
"Thank you for standing up for me. and I'm sorry for whats going on between you and Chase. He's a dick."
"Your welcome and thank you"
"I'm not even gonna pretend i know how you feel"

"You have no idea. I feel betrayed. It hurts so much. Like i can't blame him, and i've known for a while...but putting it out in the open makes it real. Like i can't believe he likes you still...like...no offense. But its just like what the fuck."
"No. i know. i dont even know what to do right now.
"Yeah....What are you gonna do?"
"I don't know...i need to talk to himmm...ugh..."
"Well...if you want, if you wanna talk tomorrow i can help you, talk it out with you. Talk everything out."
"That might be nice, i'll come knock on your door in the morning."
"Kay. Night." she said kissing me on the cheek like old times and walking out the door to the hallway. I walked out back towards my room with a slight smile on my face. Seth was standing in the door way staring at me, an anxious look on his face..like he was scared but curious. It made my stomach knot. I didn't like seeing him like this.
"Babe, wha-"
"Are you gonna take him back?" he said with a combination of despair and anger.
"What?"

Seth

“Are you gonna take him back?”

“Who?”

“Don’t play dumb with me. Who else?”

“Chase??”

I just stared at her, waiting for her answer.

“I can’t believe you’re getting into another fight with me about this idiot. Did we not just finish having a conversation about this? What did I tell you?”

“Okay, but you’re beating around the bush. Give me a straight answer!”

“NO!NO! NO! EN OH. NO. GOD! I CAN’T BELIEVE YOU THINK I’D DO THAT WHEN I JUST TOLD YOU HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU. WHAT IS YOUR ISSUE?!” she screamed running back into the bathroom locking both doors.

“fuck….BABE!” I said going after her. “Wait! Babe. Open the door!” I said banging on the door.

“Go away!”

“Babe. I’m sorry! I don’t know what I was thinking. Please just open the door…” I said turning around to lean on the door. “Babe?” There was complete silence on the other side of the door and I thought she had left quietly but then she opened the door with such quickness, causing me to fall backwards onto the bathroom tile. I was trying to find my bearings and get up off the floor when Becca burst into laughter.

“HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA . OH MY FUCKING GOD.T HAT WAS HILARIOUS. HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA.” She exclaimed tears of laughter flowing from her eyes, she ended up on the floor with me she was laughing so hard.

“It really wasn’t that funny” I mumbled under my breath.

“It really was. Did you not see? That was hilarious.”

“Whatever…” I said getting up.

“Oh, don’t get pissy with me. I’m the one that’s mad remember?? You were trying to get in here to apologize to me. Not my fault you fell…I didn’t tell you to lean on the door.” She said curtly sitting on the toilet.

“Okay. I am sorry. Really.”

“I just don’t understand why you got mad. Why you even thought I would question that. I just told you that I loved you.” She snapped.

“I know you did. I just…I can’t help it. It’s the way I was programmed…its genetics I have anger management problems. I’m really really sorry. And you know I love you too.”

Allie

I just stared at him, astonished at the fact that he was playing this game again, it’s ridiculous.

“Babe?”

“Yeah. No, it’s whatever, I don’t care.”

“Babe! Come on!”

“Do you understand how that made me feel? It practically broke my heart that you think I would do that. Especially since you know what happened between me and Chase. And since I just told you I loved you, did you like completely disregard that?”

“Babe. I’m sorry. Seriously, it’s just when I heard you two talking, I heard that and then I just went insane. I couldn’t handle it. I stopped thinking straight.” He said picking me up and sitting her in my lap.

“No. put me down.” I said getting up and walking away.

“Babe, wait!” he called to me grabbing my wrist. I flailed away from his arm and made a bigger effort to get away and I ended up tripping and falling on my butt into the bathtub.

“Thanks, Einstein.” I said glaring at him, blowing the hair out of my face. He gave me his hand, but instead of pulling myself in I pulled him down with me.

“Was that necessary?”

“Very…and so is this…” I said turning on the cold water, luckily the nozzle was one of the cool handheld/adjustable ones so I took it and sprayed him directly in the face.

“Hey! Babe! Stop!” he said blocking his face from the water. I didn’t stop so he suddenly took it from me and started wetting me.

“Aw, Babe! Come on! I had a good reason to do that! Stop! “ I said leaning back and blocking the water with more ease; though that was also a real bad move because he got on top of me and started putting the water all over me, instead of just on my face.

“Babe!” I said wrapping my arms around him trying to make it impossible for him to wet me without wetting himself. Out of nowhere he dropped the nozzle and took my face in his hands and kissed me with more passion than I’d felt in the past few days. I kissed him back with just as much passion, the anger and remorse I had pent up from the past few days melting away and going down the drain with the water.

“I love you. YOU” I said parting from his lips.

“I love you too” he said with a smirk kissing my face all over. “I really do.”I kissed him again leaning into him, his hands found their way around my waste and I held onto him tight as he got up and walked out the door, still kissing me. When I realized we were in the hallway I pulled away.
“What’s wrong?”
“Nothing…why’d you take the long way?”
“Cause’ the other doorway was really wet and I would have fallen.”
“Oh…” I said grabbing his face and pulling his lips towards mine. We started moving again very briefly when someone ran into my back.
“Ouch! What the-“ I exclaimed whipping my head around to see who it was. “Oh, its you…babe, continue walking”
“Seth. Wait.” Chase said as if defeated. “Can I talk to her?”
“Um…sure?” he said putting me down and walking into the room.
“What is so important that you had to interrupt?”
“I love you.”
“Are you drunk?”
“No, I love you.”
“And I love Seth.”
“Really?”
“Really.”
“Why?”
“What do you mean why?? What kind of question is that?”
“Why don’t you love me anymore?”
“How can i? For one thing, in the two years we went out you never once showed me the amount of affection that Seth has shown me in the two weeks that I’ve known him.”
“What are you talking about?”
“When I first met him, he was a complete asshole. We were complete opposites. He’s a jock and I’m anything but. He tripped me and we got off on a really wrong foot. But then he made it up to me. He came over to my house, he dealt with my mother, he drove me to school, he sat with me at lunch. He brought me into his home, where I found that he wasn’t anything that he seemed me and him had more in common than I thought. His mother didn’t like me much though, and when she kicked me out he got himself kicked out too. I mean, he turned his back on his mother for me. I appreciate that more than anything. And you were with me while my parent divorced, yes, but when I moved you cheated on me. You will never gain forgiveness. I might stop bothering you about it, if I decide to talk to you again, but I will never ever forgive you.”
“That’s harsh”
“Yeah…well. Are we done?”
“I guess.. but I have one more thing.”
“What is it?” I said rolling my eyes and looking at him with a bored expression. I blinked for a second and when I opened my eyes his face was right in my face. He was trying to kiss me. And I stood there frozen-Astonished at the fact that he would even attempt this. Considering the fact that I just turned him down. As I stared at him and started to walk backwards I backed into Seth who saw what was about to transpire and he punched Chase in the face.
“Seth!” I exclaimed turning into his chest, covering my face with my hands and crying. He pulled me into our room and sat me on his lap.
Seth
“Baby, why are you crying?”
“Because…I’m sorry!”
“For what? You didn’t do anything.”
“Because, I brought you into all of my stupid problems!”
“Babe, don’t you think if I cared even a little bit I would have bailed? Or at least said something?”
“I guess…but maybe you’re just humoring me because I told you I loved you.”
“Oh my god, babe, you’ve gone crazy. I’m not that much of a prick. If I told you it back I mean it. Because when it comes to girls and relationships I don’t say things I don’t mean. “
“Yeah but yo-“
“Shh! I love you. That’s it”
“I love you too”
“Thank you.” I smiled “Now, where were we before this mess of tears was thrown at you?” I said placing my thumb under her chin and tilting it so that our lips were perfectly in line. I looked her in the eyes, winked at her and kissed her softly on the lips. She kissed me back hesitantly.
“What’s wrong?”
“Nothing, why?”
“You’re hesitating.”
“What? I’m not”
“”You are, I can feel it. Be honest with me.”
“It’s really nothing, I was just wondering…”
“Wondering what?”
“Nothing, It’s really nothing, can you just let it go?”
“Fine, whatever…” I said laying down on the bed, my back facing her.
“Babe…” She said in a pleading manner.
“What?”
“Don’t be mad at me. If you want I’ll tell you in the morning…But its late. Let’s just go to sleep”
“Kay..whatever…good night”
“Babe. Look at me.”
“What?” I demanded, I realized it was a lot harsher than I had meant for it to be when I noticed the hurt look in her eyes.
“Nothing,” she whispered “go to sleep…see you in the morning.” She said swiftly, coldly turning her back to me and going to sleep. I cursed myself in the darkness.